Wow! Sorry everyone how late this is. To follow this blog you need to understand something about me. I am a perfectionist- to the extreme. It takes me about two or three hours just to do flip charts. So every time I sit down to write an entry I get lost thinking "Ok what should I say? What will have a great impact?" I get so deep into these thoughts often I put off writing for a 'another day' when I have the perfect idea. Well with my crazy busy life 'another day' often ends up days or weeks later. I made myself a promise that I would have one done before the State Ham & Bacon auction (I leave tomorrow) so here I sat struggling to come up with something.
I thought back over my day. Most of it has been consumed by stress. I leave tomorrow for Charleston and get back Tuesday afternoon. That same evening its off to Shepardstown to say with my sister so I can do chapter visits at Jefferson Co. and Washington (can't wait to see you guys!) then return Thrusday for class. Mineral County Ham & Bacon is Friday evening so I will be there then. Saturday should be relatively easy- I start work at a new job. Yikes. Then I leave again Sunday afternoon for North Carolina. I'm spending my spring break working at Habitat for Humanity. I get back next Friday.
Don't get me wrong I love the things I'm doing. I'm just feeling a little overwellmed. That is why earlier today I decided to take a nice little horse back ride. Horses are my life. They are my relief. It wasn't a long ride over rough mountains or even a fast gallop through a huge field like I generally love. It was just a nice little trot around the small field. But something happened in those few minutes. I reconnected with myself. The stress, the worries, the frantic scheduling was all forgotten. Somewhere along the line I had become so overwellmed and stressed I'd forgotten how to relax and deal with things. I was letting the physical part of my life overcome the mental. In that moment everything was prefect, everything was fine. In those precious minutes trotting around the field on a great horse something in me centered again and I felt I could take on the world. Well maybe just my small corner of it but still...
So what do I want FFA members to get out of this blog that I have been stressing over? I want you guys to have a that moment. A moment when everything just kinda clicks into place. Maybe your stressed about school, tests, parents, work, everything thats creeping into your life. But I encourage you to think of something you love and take a few moments to yourself to enjoy doing it. It doesn't necessarily have to be something big. It could be as simple as taking a moment to lay on your back and feel the glorious sun on your face on these warm spring days. You may need to set a whole day aside and drive to some remote area and drive your dirt bike on new trails. Whatever makes you happy. I want you to have a moment when nothing else matters but the here and the now in an amazing that moment.
I want to leave you with this parting thought :
Some
of the secret joys of living are not found by rushing from point A to
point B, but by inventing some imaginary letters along the way.
~Douglas Pagels, These Are the Gifts I'd Like to Give to You